Sunday, 23 November 2025

Self-Mastery

This weekend, I had the pleasure of attending a Mindvalley spiritual summit—two full days of meditation, awakenings, Qi Gong, energy work, and so much more. One of the speakers who impacted me most was Shi Heng Yi, a Green Dragon Shaolin monk whose presence was powerful.

He spoke about simple yet profound truths: everything you need is already within you, and the path to any goal is paved with determination, commitment, and patience. He explained how martial artists choose a target and reach it through these three qualities—not by rushing, but by steady, disciplined practice.

Shi Heng Yi also reflected on how our modern society glorifies constant striving. We push to become better, faster, more productive—often forgetting the value of stillness and the art of simply being. He reminded us that in spiritual and energetic work, we can only give what we have. Peace must exist within us before we can offer peace to others. We must learn to manage ourselves before we attempt to manage anything—or anyone—else.

Another point that resonated deeply was his perspective on seeking spirituality outside ourselves. When we chase teachers, masters, or endless sources of new knowledge, what we seek seems to slip further away. True understanding doesn’t come from accumulation—it comes from inward exploration. It is the mastery of the self that unlocks deeper awareness.

These were the insights I carried away from his lecture: a renewed understanding that the journey is inward, and that self-mastery is the foundation for everything. His words grounded the unsettled feelings I’ve carried—those moments of wondering “Why am I still here?” or “What is my path?”. Instead of searching for answers outside myself, I feel gratitude for being exactly where I am, and a deeper appreciation for the path I’m already walking.

NUMBERS
Pushups (modified): 10405
Situps (modified):  7420
Sparring: 81
KMs: 1403
AOKs: 1310
Blogs: 36
Mastery byu Stuart Emery:  Incomplete
Relationship Mend Status:  Complete
Da Mu Hsing: 250
Weapon Form: 150
Germain: 5210
Meditation: 1645
Tai Chi: 1305
Decluttering: 710
Yoga, Stretching, Exercise: 1530

Monday, 17 November 2025

Learning to Feel Energy and Not Chase It!

During Tai Chi, I have been focusing on energy. At first, whenever I felt it, I immediately wanted to control it—shape it, move it, do something with it. And the moment I tried, the feeling would disappear. I was always chasing it.

Eventually, I decided to stop. Instead of trying to manipulate the energy, I just let myself feel it. Can I feel it? That became my only question. Almost instantly, the sensations became easier to notice—stronger, clearer, and longer-lasting.

When Sifu Brinker and I talked about this, we shifted to discussing energy within forms. That was my aha moment. I had changed how I approached energy in Tai Chi, but I hadn’t applied that same mindset to my forms.

Now, instead of worrying about directing energy, I will simply feel it when I punch, kick, block, or transition between stances. Only by feeling it first can I learn to truly harness it.

I can’t wait to see where the next step leads.

NUMBERS
Pushups (modified): 10403
Situps (modified):  7420
Sparring: 81
KMs: 1383
AOKs: 1285
Blogs: 35
Mastery byu Stuart Emery:  Incomplete
Relationship Mend Status:  Complete
Da Mu Hsing: 240
Weapon Form: 142
Germain: 5180
Meditation: 985
Tai Chi: 1255
Decluttering: 660
Yoga, Stretching, Exercise: 1530

Sunday, 9 November 2025

Relearning to Fall

This week I tried a few backwards break falls. It’s been a long time since I last did one, and that was obvious with the first attempt — I didn’t really break my fall at all.

I kept going, though, and after a few more tries, they started to feel better. During my 1-1, we talked about why I was doing these. The better I recover, the more I confront my ego. Was it my ego wanting to prove something? Honestly, no.

This was something I had complete control over, even if it was outside my comfort zone. I want to rebuild these skills that have slipped. I want my instinct to be to break fall when I fall — a reaction that could make a real difference, especially as I get older. The only thing I need to prove is that I can do it when it matters.

Revisiting old skills reminds me that growth isn’t always about pushing forward — sometimes it’s about returning to the basics and finding confidence in them again. Learning to fall safely isn’t just a physical skill; it’s a mindset. It’s about trusting yourself to handle the unexpected, to recover quickly, and to rise without hesitation. Each break fall is a quiet reminder that resilience is something you can practice, one fall at a time.

NUMBERS
Pushups (modified): 9703
Situps (modified):  6870
Sparring: 80
KMs: 1349
AOKs: 1260
Blogs: 33
Mastery byu Stuart Emery:  Incomplete
Relationship Mend Status:  Complete
Da Mu Hsing: 240
Weapon Form: 142
Germain: 5030
Meditation: 825
Tai Chi: 1255
Decluttering: 660
Yoga, Stretching, Exercise: 1390

Sunday, 2 November 2025

Sunday Meals!

We’ve started a new tradition — Sunday Family Meals. With everyone’s busy schedules, this is the one time each week we all make an effort to gather. My parents and Mike’s dad will join us if they can, and Eagle and Seth come too. It’s our chance to reflect on the past week, talk about what’s ahead, and simply enjoy being together.

I treasure these moments. You never know how many you’ll have with someone.

Today, my mom and dad came for a visit. During our walk, we talked about old memories — how we each remembered the same event differently. We swapped recipes and laughed over shared stories.

So how does this relate to Kung Fu?

Our class time is like that family meal. It’s a time to come together, to share, to learn, and to grow. When everyone treats it as a priority, it stops feeling like an obligation and becomes something you truly look forward to.

Just as with family, these training moments won’t last forever. Right now, we’re fortunate to have our Sifus with us — to ask questions, to see their unique perspectives on the same technique. Like when Sifu Dennis helped me with “picking up the tea cup” in Tai Chi.  I kept trying to move too soon, rather than pausing, releasing, and then truly thinking about the action. Without her guidance, I would still feel jammed in that movement and wouldn’t have progressed as much as I have today.

Whether it’s family meals or Kung Fu practice, the lesson is the same: be present, appreciate the time you have, and learn from every shared moment.

NUMBERS
Pushups (modified): 9253
Situps (modified):  6620
Sparring: 71
KMs: 1319
AOKs: 1235
Blogs: 32
Mastery byu Stuart Emery:  Incomplete
Relationship Mend Status:  Complete
Da Mu Hsing: 235
Weapon Form: 142
Germain: 4880
Meditation: 825
Tai Chi: 1205
Decluttering: 630
Yoga, Stretching, Exercise: 1270
Days of Zen: behind