Monday, 7 February 2022

Black belt speech - Feb 5th Year of the Tiger

 What Kung Fu Has Done For Me!  

By Jackie Kohut


Many years ago, we were looking for something that would assist our children with self confidence and personal growth.  On a recommendation, we entered Silent River Kung Fu and immediately signed them up.  My husband and I sat on the sidelines for a few years before we decided that was enough.  Why not join our kids on the mats.   I was 43 years old and at that time it never crossed my mind that I would become a black belt, I was in it for exercise and stress relief.  Here is a blog that I wrote when I first joined.  It was May 2013.  


Well, completed the first step.  Signed up for Kung Fu classes.  What have I gotten myself into?   I am excited and scared at the same time.  I am sure everyone can understand the excited part, but why scared? … To simply state it:  Old and out of shape.  Starting something like this in my 40's is pretty crazy.  It was probably self preservation that I did not look at the curriculum before I paid for the first month.  The fitness stripe consists of sit-ups, push-ups, squat thrusts, and kicks.  WAIT ONE MINUTE!  I haven't done a squat thrust (otherwise known as burpees) in 30 years.  What have I gotten myself into?  I should get through the first class at least.  First class is in 5 days.  Should I start working out now just to get started?  Probably but likely won't happen.  Better wish me luck.


Now almost 9  years later, I have found something more than exercise or a stress reliever, I found something that changed my life. I have energy to do activities with my family that I would have missed out on.  From back country hiking, to downhill skiing, to sailing, to mud runs.  Family has always been important and with Kung Fu, we were able to grow stronger and closer both in the kwoon and out. We have trained together as a family as well as individually.  I’ve experienced many opportunities such as going to Alabama and joining in the build-vention, connecting in with other martial artists offering their time to help others.  All these things have helped me grow in ways that I never imagined.   Kung Fu is always challenging me to be a better person.  Reminding me that everyday I need to improve upon who I was yesterday.


I can honestly say that Kung Fu has likely saved my life.  I joined Kung Fu with existing chronic health conditions. Crohns, Thyroid cancer and a blood disease called Polycythemia Vera.  As a parent and as a mother, we tend to put others first and neglect our own health.   In 2016 I joined the I Ho Chuan team for the first time.  The I Ho Chuan Program expands our Kung Fu training and teaches us how to work towards mastery.  It teaches us that to help others, we must take care of ourselves and then we can be a better child, a better parent, a better spouse, and a better friend.  These last few years I made my health a priority. This started as trying to keep my blood work appointments, to mindful eating, meditation and Tai Chi.  This year I have also worked through chronic shoulder and knee injuries.  You might think these were a result of Kung Fu but you would be wrong.  These were a result of aging and being active.  Kung Fu gave me the tools to identify and deal with these injuries so they did not limit me. 

They did not stop me.  Kung Fu has taught me to push past my limits, to give a little bit more each time.


Kung Fu has given me many tools that I use in my daily life at home and at work. It has taught me that small consistent actions are what make progress, to be mindful, to never give up, to embrace each moment, and to take nothing for granted.  Many people have been waiting for the pandemic to end but by being mindful I have learnt to embrace each moment every day. I have not lost two years, but rather I have gained two years of growth, and this is a result of the adaptations that Silent River initiated. By learning to be patient and kind to myself, it removed the guilt that used to be the driver of my actions.  By working on mindfulness, I try to look at my actions to see what the true intent is.  Why am I doing something?  Is it for someone else or for me?  Am I truly present?  This has allowed me to be content even through these trying times.  


But how has Kung Fu saved my life? A couple months ago, I was diagnosed with skin cancer and during that treatment it revealed that my previous blood cancer had progressed and shortly after I was put on the bone marrow transplant list. Previously I would have ignored the little warning signs until it was too late, but by being aware and listening to my body, we were able to catch this early.  During my meeting with the transplant team, they emphasized how patients that are in good shape and who did Tai Chi or yoga have better recoveries. 

So not only has Kung Fu helped with diagnosis, it will be helping me with recovery as well.  Kung Fu has laid a foundation to help me through my transplant journey that will start in March.  It has given me physical and mental strength to carry on through good times and bad.


I hope through my journey others will realize that it is never too late to start getting in shape, it is never too late to start eating healthy and being mindful, it is never too late to join Kung Fu.  Age, injuries or health conditions will not stop you from obtaining a black belt, the only thing that stops you is giving up


 

I am so thankful for the series of events that have occured to allow me to be here today. Thank You Sifu Brinker!  You have created a school that holds true to traditional Kung Fu and an environment that has allowed me to thrive and grow. To Sifu Rybak who had to deal with me for the majority of my 1-1 meetings.  Sifu Lindstrom and Sifu Csillag who continued to push me past my comfort levels.  Sifu Denis and Sifu Vantuil who planted the seed of Tai Chi and helped to nourish it.  Sifu Hayes who keeps me grounded and striving for more.  To Sifu Sharida Csillag who joined and encouraged me through many of my personal goals over the years.  From 10K runs (yes, we did it more than once) in Vancouver to the 55K Skyline trail hike in Jasper.  To the Bjorquists who got up every Sunday to work on kicks and especially to Kody who I’ve had the pleasure to join on this journey.  To Ms Ward who partnered with me doing physio exercises throughout the year. To Ms Malinda Ferris, who agreed to be my partner even though she had no idea what she was getting into.  She challenged me, questioned me and let me toss her around over and over and over again.  And finally to my family, without their support I would not be here today.  To Simon and Nate who gave me feedback when I asked but let me find my own way.  To Katie who helped time and record my progress throughout the year (and proof read my speech). And mostly to my husband Mike, who has supported me and helped remove any barriers for my training, It is hard to acknowledge all the individuals who have influenced my journey as every interaction has made an impact so I thank each and every one of you.


Achieving a black belt is only the start of my Kung Fu journey.  Kung Fu is part of my life and I can’t wait to see how it will continue to grow this year, and for years to come. Thank you!


Sunday, 6 February 2022

Year of the Tiger Celebration and Week 1 numbers

Sifu Brinker has said that obtaining your black belt is one of the most important days of your life.  Even as I approached the Chinese New Year celebration with excitement and nervousness, I did not fully comprehend this statement.  Today as it sinks in, I've been experiencing immense feelings of gratitude, excitement, appreciation, and accomplishment.  I really don't know where I would be without Kung Fu.  I cannot thank Sifu Brinker and the instructors enough for everything that they have done for me! Yesterday will be engrained in me forever!

It was another excellent virtual banquet.   Everyone looked amazing!  Great job Ox team! Congratulations to everyone who received awards, everyone who was promoted and Sihing Bjorkquist!  I found the promotion speeches very inspirational this year.  They gave a glimpse of the path that is ahead of me and that is driving the excitement today.  Silent River has many black belts that are examples of what type of black belt I want to be. There is so much work ahead of me but I am looking forward to the challenge. 

One of my personal requirements this year was to publicly blog my numbers.  I really enjoyed following the members last year that did this.  I had a slow start but looking forward to what next week brings.

SU/PU - 1,450/50,000

18 Temple Motions -2/1000

Cane - 1/1000 (slow start as I'm trying to figure out what form I will be doing so been doing research)

Sparring- 5/1000

KM - 7.5/1609

AOKs - 31/1000

Meditation - 0.5/50

Tai Chi/Yoga - 1/50

Saturday, 29 January 2022

Past Masters

When we bow in and say "past masters" we are giving respect and honour to those before us.  When I say "past masters" I think of those that have passed away and whose knowledge we have lost.  When I look at our altar, I see items that ground me, items that instil feelings of appreciation and reminders of impermanence.  There is importance to each item that is in our Kwoon and I recently began to grasp the significance of our Nafudakake. 

During the Black Belt ceremony there were two black belts that I had never met, Sifu Jason Barrett and Sifu Joseph Smith.  I was honoured that they would take their time to join this ceremony so I wanted to know more about them.  Sifu Brinker told me that Sifu Jason Barrett was one of his original students and is third in our lineage when he earned his 1st degree.  Sifu Joseph Smith is also one of Sifu Brinker's original students who designed the Silent River Kung Fu t-shirts and certificates.  Being a student of Sifu Brinker has linked me to these black belts but I also know that their knowledge has flown to me as well.

Since that ceremony I have been studying our Nafudakake.  There are many people on that wall that have had a huge impact on my Kung Fu journey that are no longer regulars at the Kwoon. I know they are a part of me.  It is the names of those that I do not know that have sparked my curiosity as I realize that they too are a part of me.  Now when I think of "past masters" I am thinking of all those that were before me, not just the ones that have past.  

**If those who have trained with or under Sifu Barrett and Sifu Smith would like to share a story, I would greatly appreciate knowing more about them.

See you on the mats!


Sunday, 23 January 2022

Meditation

Meditation is one of my personal requirements for year of the Tiger.  A few weeks ago I joined a meditation group that meets on Sunday mornings.  I was excited thinking that I will be able to learn meditation and see the benefits in my life.  Three weeks later I am feeling discouraged, wondering if I will ever get the hang of meditation.  I am able to sit for the 30 minutes and mostly silence my mind but afterwards I do not feel the benefit.  So what am I doing wrong?  I am not being patient with myself.  I am expecting too much from myself. 

Honestly, I do not really understand mediation. If I do not understand something how can I see the benefits?  I found a website  How to Meditate that I think will also help on my path.  I am also aware that I am not appreciating Tai Chi as meditation.  I remember when I started Tai Chi that my mind would constantly wander.  Now I can stay in the moment for extended times.  

No different then learning a new form, I need to be patient and just do it.  I will be mindful so I am open to the experience.  I need to get the basics down and then start to build upon them.  I need to train and practice daily in order to get better. I need to trust the process.  Maybe then I will gain a full understanding of meditation and the benefits of it.



Sunday, 16 January 2022

Qualities of a Blackbelt

What are qualities of a Blackbelt?  No matter what belt level you are at, you should ask yourself this question. It is important to identify the qualities that resinate with you and why.  My previous blog had listed Blackbelt qualities as 1) determination 2) perseverance 3) leadership and caring 4) attention to detail.  These are still qualities that I admire in a Blackbelt but the last has morphed into "eye for detail".  

An eye for detail is the ability to remove your ego and look at things with an outsiders prospective.  An eye for detail is being brutally honest with yourself.  Honest about areas of improvement and then putting a plan in place to rectify.  Honest about your flaws but not accepting them as "good enough".  A blackbelt does not hide nor do they boast about their flaws.  They are always looking to improve upon them.  They know that you never obtain mastery, it is a relentless pursuit towards mastery.

I have reflected on these qualities many times over my Kung Fu journey but I wished I would have journaled about them when I did my reflections.  I have lost the ability to go back and review so I can only rely on my memories and these change over time.  There have been quite a few things that I also missed journalling during this year that documented my journey.  The weekly kicks on Sunday's with the Bjorkquists, the sparring rounds at home with my sons, having Sifu Brinker come in and watch my kicks or my 5 techniques over the Christmas break and the opportunity to get valuable feedback. The 1-1s that I used to help with improving the speed of my kicks, the intensity in my forms, the connection of 6 harmonies as it was not long ago that I had to focus on my returning hand's rotation to connect my left and right.  

The qualities of a Blackbelt are not only important with your Kung Fu training and journey but with anything that you tackle in life.  It is the foundation that allows for the pursuit to mastery in all things.

Sunday, 9 January 2022

Full Power/ Full Speed

These last two months as I worked through injuries, it required that I worked on my Kung Fu with different intentions.  I had to slow things down so I focused on engaging my hips with my punches and kicks in my forms.  This showed where I was not committing to a move or where I was using my shoulders.  

Last class I was feeling better and when we did our form with Full Power/ Full Speed I noticed immediately that my mindset was "Full Power means Brute Force".  I could feel my shoulders being pulled up and I was trying to power my way through my punches.  I had stopped thinking about engaging my hips and I broke my 6 harmonies.  Our shoulders and hips must be engaged before our hands and feet can ever be in sync.  

It is a hard concept to embrace that rotation is more powerful than brute strength.  Rotation of the fist, or rotation of the hips.  Now is the time to work on increasing speed and power with my intent being on engaging the hips, connecting the harmonies.  Another example of valuable learning through injuries.

See you on the mats!

Sunday, 2 January 2022

Am I in the Best Shape of My Life?

"Am I in the Best Shape of My Life?"  This is a sticker on my home office monitor.  It is my reminder to use extra minutes in my day to train and to make healthy food choices.  It was one of many affirmation stickers I put up when I became a second degree brown belt.  They are my reminders of what is needed on may path for a blackbelt. 

The last few weeks, I have been struggling as I have been introducing meat back into my diet.  During the chemotherapy and radiation treatments, there is an increase need for protein and calories.  This is because your cells are actively dividing, requiring a higher nutritional intake.  I met with a Cancer dietician and she explained how much protein I am currently consuming and how much more I will need during treatments.  This can be accomplished as a vegetarian but I also need to be gluten free and lactose free so that limits my protein sources hence my decision to add meat back into my diet.  I have made another "Am I in the Best Shape of My Life?" sticker and added it to my kitchen to help remind me me of quality food choices.

I knew Kung Fu would benefit me in all aspects of my life but it became more apparent when I was meeting with my transplant team just before Christmas.  They emphasized that patients that were in good shape had better outcomes than those that were not.  Patients who actively did Tai Chi or Yoga not only were in better shape but also had a more positive mental outlook throughout the process.  I knew Kung Fu would benefit me but I never expected "Am I in the Best Shape of My Life?" would carry such a significant role in my future.  

"Am I in the Best Shape of My Life?" was also at the forefront during our New Years challenge.  Since I had to do modified PUs, I focused on working different muscles, not just getting the numbers in.  I was mindful of my injuries and making sure I pushed myself but did not reinjure anything.  Today I am sore but in a good feeling way.  

Am I in the Best Shape of My Life? After the current round of injuries, I have had setbacks but I keep that phrase in front of me so each day I am working to recover and improve.  This will be one of the phrases that I will be have in front of me always.

See you on the mats!