Do you remember riding the merry-go-round at the park when you were young? Starting to run around the outside and then the big jump onto the platform, hanging onto the bar. The merry-go-round gathering speed, soon going so fast that you are hanging on for dear life, not able to let go and afraid to jump off. Everything around you becomes a blur. Something that started off fun but now you wonder why you got on in the first place. Do you remember those days?
I have been thinking of this analogy many times as the last few months of work have been very busy and the last few weeks even busier. I know that this will be continuing for the next few years and there is really no end in site. I feel that I am holding on for dear life onto that merry-go-round while my days are blurring around me. Afraid to take the leap off of it. Knowing that it is a risk to jump off.
Eleven years ago, a couple of big medical events occurred that allowed me to stop that merry-go-round and look around. Maybe that is why I am aware of being on that merry-go-round and that I want more. Can I stop it? Probably not, but eventually I will make the leap off trying to gauge the safest place to jump. So what am I doing now? This week was a blur with so many things out of my control, so I had to take control of the things that I could. It took me a few days to get things back to some order and even as I drove into yoga classes on Saturday, I was still on the edge. Now after a wonderful class of yoga that helped to ground me and then a great workout with Mr. Sollinger at open training, I am standing up on that merry-go-round, letting the wind whip through my hair and enjoying it. Sometimes you just need a little help finding your balance so you're able to enjoy that ride again.
See you on the mats!
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