As I plan for the year of the Tiger requirements, I am finding these the hardest since joining the I Ho Chuan team. I realize that I am not same person that started Kung Fu years ago, I am not the same person that started this year, nor am I the same person that woke up today. My requirements are changing as I look deeper into the intent of what I am working to achieve as well as my potential to make these changes.
One of the things on my list is learning to embrace my health issues. I have lived with them, I have dealt with them, but my appointments were just hoops. Things to check off to say "I'm fine, I'm conquering this" but chronic illnesses are not conquerable. Diet, exercise, sleep, mental fortuity, meds, appointments and my medical team all play parts in keeping my illnesses controlled but I have not accepted the reality that these also make me who I am. Accepting and embracing something is not a measurable requirement so I need to find tools to help obtain this. I am planning on using meditation and support groups but I also need to make sure these support my intent.
I am so appreciative for the successes and failures over the years as these have paved the path for where and who I am today. As I look in the mirror tonight, I will thank the person that is there for she will be gone tomorrow yet she will always remain a part of me.
See you on the mats!
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