Sunday, 19 December 2021

Ego and Injuries

Everyone will end up with an injury sometime in their lives and you must modify your activities while you recover from an injury.  So why does it seem so much harder when training?  Although I want to be in class, I feel like I may be distracting to my training mates.  I am not giving my 100% on the class lesson so should I really be attending?  Am I going to learn anything if I can't do the class?   It all has to do with my ego.   My ego is worried about what others are thinking, that I am being judged, that I am not good enough.  My mind is powerful, with positive thoughts and negative ones.

This year has proven how wrong my ego is.  If I didn't train when I had an injury, I would have lost most of the year.  I would have been out of many classes, sitting on the bench instead of doing what I could.  Sometimes I am at the back of the class and sometimes I am doing modifications in class but I need to give 100% effort on the activities that I can do.  That is the difference! If I try to make it "look" like I'm doing the activity but with no effort, what is the benefit?  I am only fooling myself.

But injuries are also the best breeding grounds for mediocrity.  Injuries give permission to modify, rest, recover and it is easy to use these as excuses.  I get frustrated training after an injury because of all the progress that has been lost.  It is easy to let that frustration take over.  My ego thinks I should be able to come back to where I was but that is unrealistic.  Every day that I don't train, is a slip downwards.  A week off is a major set back so I need to find other ways to train, that way if I am slipping in one area, I am still progressing in another.   But that can lead to mediocrity as well, I can always be looking for a workaround instead of pushing myself as the injuries heal.  Training with injuries can let my ego open the door to mediocrity so I must stay mindful always.

See you on the mats!


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