Minor setback

This blog is late but I have a few reasons.  It started Sunday night/Monday morning with my first trip to the ER since my transplant (almost 10 months ago) for a fever.  Good news is that is a pretty good streak, bad news is a cold is what caused this.  A minor cold caused a high fever and now the other symptoms are setting in but it always could be worse (it’s not Covid 😊).  Also my UAH ER trip was just over 3 hours and that included X-rays, IV antibiotics, blood draws, swabs, fluids, etc.  I really had great care (had to plug our great medical people out there).

Now it doesn’t take much to shake my emotional state and the last few days I was more tired than normal and that caused some anxiety and self pity.  I know it’s okay to feel these things and to acknowledge them but as someone who likes to look at the positive, it is really hard to blog during the down times.  This is not fair to me or to you.  I need to transparent with the good and the bad so I can be true to myself.  

Once I acknowledged my current feelings and lack of activity, I needed to make a plan to move forward smartly. I wanted to do my own exercise program today but Mike just raised his eyebrow as any exertion would cause coughing and a runny nose.  Sometimes it’s the outside advice that helps us make those smarter decisions.  So I made a small checklist of a few doable things and slowly worked on those.

Can this relate to Kung Fu and your journey? Absolutely.  There will always be something that will take that great streak you have (or a not so great one) and send it sideways.  It will be your attitude that makes you elevate and allow you to jump back in the wagon.   But you need to be recognize the negative feelings that occur when you fall off.  Recognize and accept them but do not let them rule you, get help if needed.  It’s the same concept when your mind wanders during meditation, recognize and accept it and move on.  As long as we are moving forward we are making progress.