I always thought I didn’t have an ego but when I really start evaluating myself, I had a bigger ego than I cared to admit. This year stripped my ego bare and laid it out. Feelings about where I am and where I could be only if. ..
Only if I didn’t get sick
Only if I didn’t have complications
Only if I was able to attend classes in person
Only if I was more present
Only if I was more consistent
Only if I recorded my numbers better
Only if I blogged more
My ego is creating doubt about joining next years IHC.
What have I contributed to the team this year? How could I regress so far? My muscles have seized and my mind has gaps. My body aches and my my knees are once again screaming at me. I am feeling VERY old.
I know movement will help with the muscles, both strength and flexibility. I know repetitions will help with the brain gaps.I say that I am okay with where I am but that is not true. The “only if” questions is my ego is stopping me from accepting my current reality. I cannot just tell my ego to STOP IT! My first step is to acknowledge it and then my ego needs to be trained, just as my body and brain does. Only then will I be successful. This is why I will be joining IHC again. It is my guidebook to training my ego, my brain, and my body. One step at a time.
Yah!! You have contributed more than you know, you are an inspiration to us all. Your tenacity, bravery, and not giving up is amazing, and inspires us all, everyday 🥰
ReplyDeleteI’m glad to hear you’re going to be on the team. You’re an inspiration even from a distance. I think of you often.
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear you will be on the team again. Your engagement, positivity and smile over the years has been an inspiration to me. "Thank you ego, step aside, I've got this!" I say this often when I recognize ego becoming an issue.
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