Am I doing this for the right reason?

 One of my personal goals was to do 50 vegetarian days.  I had only logged a couple of them up to now so I decided I would go vegetarian consistently to get these completed.  Mike stated "Sounds like you are doing this to check it off your list, isn't that the wrong reason".  Initially I was defensive and said "absolutely not" but as I have had time to reflect he is correct.  That is not stopping me from staying with my vegetarian diet, but it is changing how I look at it.  Why did I choose this as a requirement?  What am I trying to accomplish?  

I wanted to be more mindful of my eating habits.  What I was eating, what I was discarding, where was my food coming from, etc.  I had a goal "Mindful Eating".  I had a plan "growing our own food, limiting our food wastage, knowing where our meat comes from, and increasing our vegetarian meals.  To accomplish this will entail document and weighing any food placed in the garbage for 30 days, having 50 vegetarian days, 30 consistent days of gluten free and lactose free" and I have almost completed my steps in my plan so I must be successful, correct?  WRONG!  

I had great intentions when I started and have accomplished most of these requirements but along the way I lost the intent.  I know this because I am not being as mindful on what and where I am wasting food, something that I just finished and blogged about. I was being vegetarian to finish my 50 day requirements.  So is this a failure?  No, it just means I need to stop, take a breath and ask "Am I truly mindfully eating?".

This has been a huge revolation for me as I recognize the pattern in so many more aspects of my Kung Fu and my life.  Am I doing this for the right reason? There are many places where I can say yes but there are others that are going to need adjustment.  All of them will need constant review (hmm sound familiar?). 

On a side note, growing our own food has taken off.  Literally LOL!

See you on the mats!