Today was my first on video black belt class in 9 months. I’ve been monitoring the class and working with the video off so I was very nervous. I almost talked myself into “one more class” of video off.
Why was I so nervous? Chemo brain is a real thing. My forms (and most other things) take so much more thought process than before. So I start to think “What if I don’t know them, will I look silly?” All the ego self doubt talk that we all do at one time or another. I was about to use it as an excuse but figured I will do what I can. I know I’m not being judged so why was I letting my ego dictate this.
I had Mike help me with Lau Gar before class. I remembered more than I thought but I did have some issues with transitions. When I did my class, I went at my speed and focused on trying to maintain grounding. My balance and stances were shaky but I actually made it through the entire class! My cardio was up and my legs were feeling it but it was awesome! I was so energized that I wanted to do more immediately but the one thing that I have learnt these last 9 months is to take these small steps and pace myself just as long as I keep motivated to move forward!
Nice to be on the mats for another class!
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