In Control?

Some people said we were crazy and others thought it was cool when we told them we were pulling our trailer to the mountains and going skiing.  I think people had their own ideas of what we were doing, but we had a trailer that was plugged in and really warm and we had a blast so I guess it really only matters what we thought of the experience.

Once we got to Jasper, we had a large dump of snow so there were huge amounts of powder that I have never skied in before.  At the top of the mountain, it was over my knees on the green runs and I couldn't see what I was skiing on and I could only feel the bumps underneath. The wind made it cold and iced up my glasses so there were also many times I couldn't see as well.  I did not like either of these conditions at all!  I found myself fighting for every turn and physically trying to keep my center low.  I didn't want to wipe out, I didn't want to loose control.  So I played it safe and there it is, my normal go to.  This is something that I have been fighting with in KungFu as well.  Taking steps outside of my comfort zone. 

My biggest hurdles come from the times when I feel like I am out of control of a situation.  Maybe that is why I like to be in control as much as I do.  I really don't know how to get past this.  I know I won't give up trying things over and over but that right now I am thinking "I wish I would have been a bit braver and risked a wipeout with such a soft landing right there".

Don't get me wrong, I had a blast!  I  know I will probably never ski in conditions like this ever again.  It was a lot of hard work but it was a great time and I am glad that I did it.   I am also glad that I can start to recognize some of my fears when I feel like I am not in control but now I need to work to get past them and then I should start seeing bigger strides.

See you on the mats!