Stability of KungFu

This week has been a very emotional.  I have felt that I have been on that very fine line where I have been on the edge of tears.  There has been a lot of chaos in both work and home in the last few months and stress was at its highest.

My work is going through very massive changes and one of my colleagues retired so I was helping transition her work and had to take over 5 of her staff.   In the same time, we have been restructuring our teams to provincial areas.  This restructuring means that the majority of my staff that I have had for the last 12 years will no longer be reporting to me.  This has been hard on them and its hard to be supportive when your feelings are overriding your logic.  I know this is the right thing to do but I want to cry and say no!

At home, one of our kinship boys left us in January.  There were many months leading up to this where the chaos in our family exploded.  Now we are trying to find that balance within our family again.  I can't go into details but although it has added another layer of complexity, I will not regret the decision to open our doors.

During the time of ultimate stress, I just dealt with the situation.  Now that things are starting to stabilize, the feelings are coming out and that is why I have been on the edge.  When dealing with work/home balance, as long as one is stable I can deal with chaos in the other but when both are in chaos it becomes hard to keep any balance.  As I spoke to Sifu Brinker, I realized that KungFu is the stability in my life when everything else is out of my control.  It is the one thing that I can control when I am on the mats, or at work, or at home.  During these time of chaos, it would have been easier to stay at home saying I just had too much going on, but getting out the door and attending class is the best thing that I could have done.

So when you find your world in chaos or out of control, don't pull back from KungFu.  Work harder on it and it will help pull you through.