Training on my own

 My third session of cancer exercise class is almost complete.  That means I have been doing them for 30 weeks and the change has been amazing.  I can feel my muscles again, especially in my legs and glutes.  My knees have not been hurting at all.  I think that since I needed to rebuild everything from the ground up, I had no other muscles compensating.  Throughout my exercises, I focus on intent.  What is the muscle I am trying to work on?  If I can’t feel it or activate it, I am asking why.  Do I have my core engaged? Am I doing the motion correctly?  Am I activating other compensating muscles.  This journey has really allowed me to focus on feeling movement, feeling proper muscles firing, stretching and breathing. Just feeling!

I am scared because classes are over for the summer.  Like all training, if I don’t use it, I will lose the ground I gained so now begins the hard part.  Training again on my own.  I know I can do it, I was doing it before but that was 15 months ago.  The difference now is I am not afraid of failure, I am afraid of not even trying so as long I keep that in front of me, I will continue to progress.