The loss of routine has greatly affected me. Before my cancer treatment I had a great routine and I was able to carry this for the first few weeks in the hospital. But then I got really sick where I literally lost a month from my memory and lost another 4 weeks just fighting to heal.
Now it’s 17 months since I was released from the hospital and I’m trying to do a gradual return to work. At first I was so nervous “what if I can’t do it, what if I fail”. Self doubt was weighing on me. Then I realized I will have the opportunity to start routines again and only then did I notice how I still have NO routine in my life except medical appointments and my KF classes. I make a list and will work on them during the day but I do not schedule time to do the tasks. But it’s even more than that, I don’t have a routine daily schedule even outside of my tasks. The only things I worry about is taking medications at the right time and my nighttime dental routine. I guess I do have some routine, tasks that I don’t even think about anymore. I am excited to start expanding on these routines. I will start with a few items to make sure they are doable and then work from there.
I am sure that improving my routine is going to help in all areas of my life including my Kung Fu.
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