Last week I participated in the Vancouver 10K sun run. My goal for this year was to improve my time from last year. Even though we had a period of hail, I was able to improve my time by 10 minutes to 1 hour 18 minutes. I was over 50% of my age range or age category and felt way better than I did last year after completing the run. But even with all these items that should be a success, I’m actually disappointed. Why? Because I don’t feel that I trained hard for this event. Yes I trained some, I had a running schedule that I had created, and I followed it for the first week. Then I just ran every once in a while, then I had a good run followed by a bad run and that was the end of my running until race day.
This reiterates how easy it is to get frustrated and not train even though you know you should. I wished that my time did not improve. I don’t know what was worse, not beating my time or beating my time knowing that I did it was so much mediocrity. I’ve been sitting and stewing about this for a while and it’s nice to actually be able to get it down on paper. I always seem to work better when I’m with someone and held accountable by someone but that is not always realistic. So how do you change and stop the little excuses that keep popping into your head to justify your mediocrity actions? Since this mediocrity has set in, I’ve also noticed where it sat in on other places in my life. My number have decreased, I have slipped on some of my personal requirements, and stress in my life has increased. For someone who never has been athletic or had an exercise routine in her life, this is the area that I seem to struggle the most. Sometimes it’s even harder when you are watching people succeed effortlessly (at least it appears effortlessly) around you. Oh well, just need to carry on.
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